It's been five years without my best friend by my side. It's also incredibly coincidental that today I embark on my first half marathon. I cannot begin to tell you how many times I repeated Nicole's last words through my head as I've struggled through a long run - "no matter what. never stop moving". It has furthered me so much to the point where it's written on the back of my sneakers. I think often 'I run for Nicole because she cannot and how she used to love to'
To Nicole, there never seemed to be a coincident. Everything was purposeful - God's plan. I try to remind myself of that when I long to call her, share my life with her as I've gotten older. I miss her every single day and think of her always. I laugh a little because I woke up not realizing how the days lined up and I secretly like to think it was her plan all along. Funny how the world works.
Today, as I run, I hold her close to my heart. I know she is the power inside of me that continues my movement, that pushes me further. I love you and miss you.
With today being five years without her, I ask that you make a donation to the American Brain Tumor Association or NYU Langone Health. I hope to see a day where no one will have to feel the loss of such a terrible disease.
To read more about Nicole's story, head to http://www.newschoolfreepress.com/2012/03/29/nicki-mullers-sketchbook/ where you can easily fall in love with her, the way many of us did